i dwell on the passing of my good friends father.
like i cant think about anything else because i know how unfair it is. i hate everything about the situation knowing that not i or anyone had any control over it.
i find myself upset and confused and beside myself with grief as if i lost my own father.
i just cant imagine the aching her body must go through on a day to day basis.
and i hate that the most about the situation, is that of all people, they are the most undeserving.
i cringe when people say "they hate their dad" or when they yell at their father, at least you have one.
its like im going through the motions that she is going through. im almost happy with it, hoping that God in some way divided the pain up and passed it out to her closest friends, knowing full well how undeserving she is.
i feel more at peace that we are raising so much money and awareness for him. i actually love it. like i can actually have control over some of the situation.
you are a gorgeous girl mackenzie bucher, inside and out. thank you for teaching me grace like no one else could.
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