PCS

there used to be this little girl in my life

who had brown hair

freckles

and the biggest brown eyes.

she is every bit of the reason of who i am now

and who i soon will become

she taught me freindship

and love

understanding

patience

and most of all, she made my heart swell

its the people in your life that you hold the closest to you,

that you think you will never lose them.

and that is a harsh reality when you actually do.

she was my 24/7

my best friend

and when middle school started

i met a new little blonde girl

who had new friends

and new houses to play in

and i was slowly pulled away from her

years went by, and we were growing apart

thinking i still knew her

still had her

one day...reality hit

when she told me she never wanted to see me again

talk to me again

and her new lifestyle

that wasnt like her at all.

i think it is hard for me, to keep people close to me now

in fear that just like her, i will lose them when i get too close

it has been six years now since i have actually spoken to her,

on her wishes...

not my own.

 and i bet she would think it was really weird that my heart still aches over her

i think about her, and her son everyday

and how i couldnt even be there for her with her new life, and new baby

one day my heart is going to shatter everywhere

and im going to write my little brown eyed and brown haired best friend

and tell her how much i still absolutely love her, for all that she is.

afterthought- never be afraid to tell someone how you feel, they are human too.