its the most wonderful time of the year

 so its like.....3am on the eve of December 25th...which means CHRISTMAS!!!

which i am not at all ready for

wasnt it just my nineteenth birthday?

i wasnt even ready for that!!

i am excited though

this year was the first year i actually had my own money

so i could buy things for my parents

and brother and sister

who more than deserve a little surprises here and there

seeing as they sacrifice so much for me

never have i been the type of person to take advantage of things

or take things for granted

all my life i think i have had a full understanding of how lucky i am 

to have this life that i have been so blessed with

my christmas eve was adorned with a wonderful array of people

who mean the most to me in my life

my family, the kimballs, the campbells, and my boyfriends family

and if those people were the only people in my life

i would be blessed

cause they are all the support system anyone would ever really need

it was refreshing for me to be around people who KNOW me

from baby sara with crazy teeth

to adult sara with a tattoo and over bleached hair

and its those people that you should love the most

cherish the most

in a room full of family

in heart but not in blood

i am finally in the christmas spirit

and feel like i am finally home again

and that my heart is finally at ease from its long journeys up and down 81

i have been meaning to tell you!

i do this weird thing

and i always have done this weird thing

when i see things going on in my life

i observe the actions and the situation

and then write it thoroughly in my journal in my head

as if i have a type writer all the time and im filling the pages to my next best seller

because everyone is interested in the utmost detail of my ever so exciting life....right?

;)

i am strongly looking into writing a book, as i told my mother 

as she jittered through her two cups of coffee that kept her awake

and dominated at bejeweled as she listened to me rant about my fascination

with life and people and things

im interested in writing a book that people can relate too

because we are all human, who doesnt need a survival guide? 

or at least a helping handing to know that

YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!! 

well, merry christmas beautiful. i hope its a gorgeous one. 

afterthought- its 3am on christmas morning before the sun...and the anxious children wake up all over the country praying that santa brought them at least ONE new thing. and its my hope that everyones trees at this point are filled with at least one thing to look forward to. and to those people and children who have nothing under the tree, maybe it isnt tangible, but i pray that there is always love under their christmas tree. because lets be honest, who doesnt LOVE a little LOVE now and then. xo

b i r t h d a y s!

YAY! BIRTHDAYS!

sooooooo many fun birthdays in december!

last night me and the boyfriend went to

celebrate my room mates birthday!

and then on friday night we celebrated mine

(a week early)

so to everyone this month

HAPPPPPYYYY BIRTHHHDAYYY!!!!

i am strongly looking forward to my birthday

ill finally be home and with my family

and PRESENTS....but thats not important

otay! happy sunday! good luck on your finals

and then CHRISTMAS!

yay!

trust me, you deserve it

oh good morning you gorgeous thing

how are ya

i got to start this bitter december day at 7am this morning

and for as much as i want to bitch about my 6 hours of sleep

i really enjoyed getting up and getting my day started early

i got up and put on a cozy outfit, picked up the cat and was on my way

honey bear is getting his man parts taken from him today

its okay, the only women that will ever be in his life are me and barb

starbucks sounded amazing

when i pulled up to the green and inviting letters

i could smell the coffee brewing mixed in with still snow

its december sweetheart

its time to indulge

cause you deserve it

so im sitting infront of the computer

with 'the weepies' playing in my head

as i sip on my hand crafted grande peppermint mocha

and enjoy the full spectrum of this yummy month

indulge.

its december.

you know like the people on those crazy diets

who can eat whatever they want on wednesdays

just so they dont feel like prisoners of nasty food

and dont feel guilty for straying away just for one day

humans are funny like that

so december is your wednesday

plus you look amazing anyway

no need for that diet

afterthought- you dont know a lot people, but who cares. doesnt mean you cant put yourself in their shoes for a few minutes, love all over them. they need it just as much as you do angel.

and happy birthday 20th tori barnette! love you

PCS

there used to be this little girl in my life

who had brown hair

freckles

and the biggest brown eyes.

she is every bit of the reason of who i am now

and who i soon will become

she taught me freindship

and love

understanding

patience

and most of all, she made my heart swell

its the people in your life that you hold the closest to you,

that you think you will never lose them.

and that is a harsh reality when you actually do.

she was my 24/7

my best friend

and when middle school started

i met a new little blonde girl

who had new friends

and new houses to play in

and i was slowly pulled away from her

years went by, and we were growing apart

thinking i still knew her

still had her

one day...reality hit

when she told me she never wanted to see me again

talk to me again

and her new lifestyle

that wasnt like her at all.

i think it is hard for me, to keep people close to me now

in fear that just like her, i will lose them when i get too close

it has been six years now since i have actually spoken to her,

on her wishes...

not my own.

 and i bet she would think it was really weird that my heart still aches over her

i think about her, and her son everyday

and how i couldnt even be there for her with her new life, and new baby

one day my heart is going to shatter everywhere

and im going to write my little brown eyed and brown haired best friend

and tell her how much i still absolutely love her, for all that she is.

afterthought- never be afraid to tell someone how you feel, they are human too.

ew

just realized why i am so sick....

i go to the library every day, facebook, internet surf, go on stumble, get inspired for the new house and write on my blog...okay as im doing that i always bring a bag of cereal.

i type, click the mouse, put my hand in the bag, put my fingers in my mouth, continue to type, click and then put more cereal in my mouth.

okay IMAAAAGINE how many people a day, sit here type, pick there nose, cough, sneeze, eat, and scratch....dont wash their hands, and then i put all their NESS in my mouth.

cool sara. time to get some wipes and anti bacterial

AND STOP EATING IN PUBLIC PLACES!!!

ew

first s n o w

tried to wake up early this morning to get my lazy ass into a new habit. i have been lounging for the last 3 months and need to get my show on the road! pulled myself from my warm blankets, kissed the boyfriend good morning, bundled up and i was off to treck back into the blustery cold to visit my cat...at my own house.

maybe my new fuzzy snow man socks were the reason for the light fall of snow today. my house greeted me with a warm hug of heat when i opened the severely dated blue front door and the smell of laundry in the dryer and coffee shook the wintery mix of outside right off of me.

i am so happy that it is december already! december is my favorite month of all time, not because i will have a birthday in 17 days or anything ;) but it is sooo magical and spirit filled. warm and cozy and december even smells good.

well you gorgeous human being, you have a gorgeous day, cause you deserve it, and ITS DECEMBER!!!!

afterthought- **CHRISTMAS COUNTDOWN T-MINUS 24 DAYS!**